but really, the real point

Ok, i feel i had to break this into multiple parts, that last post was getting to long.

So, i had a great day and i did not let that little crap of Wal-Marts not having what i need get to me, should i have?

I mean, does that mean something? It is really difficult to get me angry/ pissed but should i get more sensitive?

Last week was rough [with work], both the hangers and my Thesis mid-term so i let some work slide until last night at very late and i was WAY not prepared for class today. I waited way to long to work on it and i felt shitty the only way to teach myself a lesson [the lesson being don't procrastinate] is to feel down about it and make this event stand out in my memory so i will remember not to do it again, right?

In an unrelated event, I missed my first deadline ever this semester, i mean really missed it. I was involved in a design competition at my university and i really screwed up my time management and tried to redesign my project in 5 days and as a result i could not even submit for the competition. I spent most of September working on this project, changed it at the last moment and then could not complete it. How did i deal with it? Just shrugged it off and have not touched it yet.

Part of me is very glad that i can let that go but i also want to pissed at myself for not doing what i had set out to do. ARGH! Don't get me wrong i was/ am pretty disappointed in myself for not submitting.

This semester has been really awakening [i know that might be getting repetitive, but it is true]. I have made several revelations about design in general and most of them have not even come from my architecture work this semester, all from my scenic design class. I love every person that is in that room every tuesday and thursday, i miss theatre so much. Oh god, am i in the wrong field? What a question, right? 6 months from graduating with my masters. . .

But, i digress.

So i am going to try something this week. I did not perform up to my standards today in my class so i am going to try and punish myself [not sure how yet]. We will see how this goes. I am going to go and shower and do some work.