so this is, almost, the new year

Ok, so for my loyal blog readers, i submit this entry, which i started on December 30th, for your consideration;

So as i have stated in the previous posts, i am sorry. I have been back in Saint Louis for a bit now but i have not found the time to update this, but today is a good day to do so.

Also last night i got to see some people that mean so much to me, Dave and Sarah Schroeder

Oh the updates i have to make.

I will start small, as for my career i have decided to make my first move, post graduate degree, to Saint Louis. Before i went to school i was working at this behemoth architectural firm, right now i don't think that is for me. I have decided to seek architectural licensure and to get a better experience at all of the facets of the profession, i want to work at a smaller-to-mid sized firm. A specialty? Right now i am interested in some residential and light commercial. I am really excited to find a mentor and begin my career. I am really exited to see where it takes me.

So then there is the school thing. My last semester was one of my personally worst [that might be harsh, there were some good things to happen]. It all began with my disappointing museum competition debacle [October]. From that point the semester had me questioning every step i took towards a degree in architecture. Let me tell you, that blows. My scenic design class went great, and my design seminar [the hanger pavilion] also was great, but my thesis drug me down. It seemed like with the misstep of the museum competition it gave me this opinion of myself like "i could not even finish this, i am not a good designer/ student/ architect" YUK. Again, what a shitty feeling to have to be feel completely incompetent at something you are supposed to be a professional [almost] at. I left Champaign with a few goals, academically, that i was not even able to complete. Sometimes i feel like i am so far behind that nothing i do can can catch me up, or get me settled with where i want to be.

Was the last month a complete loss? Yes. Ok, i am kidding. There were a few bright, glimmering amazing moments this last month, most sprang from a rekindling of a very old friendship. Over the Thanksgiving week i spent in Saint Louis, i began a relationship many years in the making. I had had a crush on Amanda Mckenney for i can't tell you how long [well i can actually point towards around 11 years, which coincides with our meeting the first few weeks of high school], after several long and boring [j/k] talks on the phone i decided it was time for our first date. I say "i decided" because i asked her chicken shit ass out, but in her defense, she didn't say no. Amanda truly is an inspiration to me, and she has her funny moments too. I can't tell you how wonderful it is to be able to tell her everything i have always wanted to, and be able to show her the love i have had for her for so long. Together we are mind blowing.


So this concludes the post that has been log-jaming [industry term] my blog for a while. I will be publishing more soon. I wanted to catch you all up.