the town that closes at 10pm

If anyone who reads this make any type of decisions in Champaign, LISTEN UP! I come from Saint Louis, not like it is a megalopolis but come on. I used to certain things, like all night fast food. WTF? When i leave the studio at 1am - 4am i want some fast food that will shorten my lifespan and inspire thoughts of exercise in my head. What is a boy to do? Am i looking in the wrong place? Don't get me wrong i love hot dogs in my toaster oven, but COME ON!!!

I know a lot of people come from the Chicago-Land area down here, how weird must they feel? the town shuts down sooo early. Hmm. We are on a freaking HUGE college campus, is there no market for all night places?

"People need to study and sleep, they don't need to be up all night". Bull shit.

Illinois, you let me down. Ok, maybe that was harsh.

by myself

So, here i sit, for the second night in a row at Aroma, an absolutely cool little coffee place in downtown champaign. Is it weird that i am here by myself?

I knew when i came back to school this semester i was going to do some thing differently, like try to meet more people, try to hang out more, etc. But after a few nights of this i think i actually do like this. Just being here by myself. Don't get me wrong, i LOVE (all caps) to hang out with people, i LOVE to interact with people, i LOVE to make people laugh, i LOVE to laugh, i LOVE people, i LOVE to talk.

BUT, i also love to hang out with myself, chill out, wind down. And i figure the more time i spend at places i like to be at, the better chances i will have of finding people who love doing the same things.

Sometimes over the past week i have felt a little lame about not hanging out with anyone inparticular but i should not feel lame. I just got out of a pretty serious relationship and i think i am just taking sometime to really find myself again. It is kind of a funny cliche, but getting to know yourself is REALLY important, "Know they self", thanks Oracle.

This is really important. Right now, i am not sure if there is someone that i know that would sit here with me (in town at least) and listen to how i am getting to know myself again. But the reason i started this blog was to not only let who ever wants to listen, listen, but to also work out what i am going through.

So thanks for listening!

on that smoking thing

I did not start smoking, it is kind of ridiculous. Sure i will endulge every now and then, but frequently? Not for me.

I enjoy my deep inhales.

I just need to work out a bit now and get my body in the same shape my mind is.

my time has begun, again

So i am sitting in champaign with half of my belongings still in my car. It was a sad event leaving the family today after spending my nights and days with them for the summer. I am sure it may be a rough few days getting acclimated to champaign again but i know everything will go smooth.

I did enjoy my summer, i learned so much about myself. I am eager to get into school, again. I am eager to use my time in champaign to it's fullest. I am eager to meet new people. I am ready for a great year!

today is the day

So based on me making my own life hell for this week, i have decided to end my life prematurely. nothing like suicide, i am going to start smoking tonight, which will shorten my life, prematurely.

i am mixed right now. i am not sure if this schedule is based on the profession, the people around me or is it something like i just love doing it to myself.

i need to think about this.